what is it like?
i am on the morning sofa drinking coffee
waiting the hour between meds and breakfast
it is warm
the fan is off
the fan’s switch is nine feet away by the door
i put on my heavy hinged knee brace and stand
this requires considerable effort
and generates significant but momentary pain
i retrieve the aluminum walker which is nearby
i take four walker-steps
each requiring two regular ones
flip the fan switch
and retreat to the sofa
sit and remove the brace
the fan is whirling too fast
being ultra careful i leave the brace behind
stand again
and with the walker held secure
crab my way three feet to the fan
reach up and adjust the speed
then slowly retreat to the sofa
that is a small part
of what it is like